oh look, i've fucked up, again...

today i found out that james from london wont be coming until june, rather than march...

roadtrip with dave was unfortunately cancelled, and i think he's pissed at me, i guess i wish i could explain to him how disappointed i cant go either...my parents told me that i have to go to florida with them...this will be the first time i return to my grandfather's house since he died in september...i dont know how i'll deal with that...i miss him so much...i sat in my room staring at his picture, and it helps i suppose, just a little, but it helps...this christmas was horrible...my mother didnt want to celebrate at all...we all had presents from nana, and unfortunately on my mother's present it read, "love mom and dad" with the "and dad" part crossed out...it was obvious that nana had pulled off the original tags and put on new ones...nana and papa always went shopping early cause they'd buy stuff on cruises they went on earlier...

today was just an all around bad day...

tonight was good. i'll tell you about it later.

today was spent in my pajamas watching disney movies...
the afternoon was spent with justin, tr, and pete...it was nice to see and talk to justin, tr laughed at justin's girlfriend, and i like pete...i've always liked pete...::shrugs::
the night was spent with britt and erika at britt's house watching the simpson, early episodes when barney's hair was blond, when wigam was black, and apu didnt know homer...then we talked as we have a tendency of doing, which inevitably leads to character bashing of people we dont like...for example this one girl who applied to get inot syracuse university. she had to have a portfolio that more or less was throughout the highschool years, she did it in a month, and it sucked, she has no artistic ability, and i think her voice sucks...just cause she's a soprano doesnt mean shit...anyway, she didnt get in, and she was surprised...::rolls eyes::

tonight was a good night. very informative.

its strange, but i think dave is the first person to be able to read me like a book, however, i'm sort of a complex book, so there are things even dave doesnt understand. haha.

justin is home and all is right with the world again. :)